As I wake this morning to the cloudy skies left over from a stormy night, once again as usual thoughts came to mind.
I normally toss and turn at night quite a bit, but last night was different as I realized how comforting it was to hear and feel the thunder and gaze out the window and see an incredible light show of lightning shining through the blinds. There has always been a soothing comforting feeling that comes over me during a storm. I have always been this way.
I have always been the one that goes outside to sit on the porch during a lightning storm rather than to take cover and hide like most people do.
So as I got up and showered, brushed me teeth and was drying off, grabbed my phone to check my email and messages And of course to check Facebook..a few thoughts ran across my mind. Thoughts I'll share with you now.
There are times when we meet people that for whatever agenda it is that they wish to seek using you to fulfill it, I notice these people are initially very nice. Often they have an agenda in their head about how to use you.. long before they even met you.
So as time goes on you actually witness just how Fucked up and psychopathic these people truly are at the revelation of standing in the wake of something truly deceitful and horribly disrespectful that they have done to you and you sit there in disbelief like wow really?
So you sit there and realize That whatever kind friend that you were to them didn't matter. What mattered more to them was their agenda. You realize that whatever love you shared or that you thought you shared was never actually what you thought it was about at all.. All realized by their demonstrated commitment to some foul assed agenda that often doesn't have anything to do with you.. The truth is this person was a fucked up piece of shit of a person before they ever even met you... You..just so happen to bump into them..while they were using their disguise of mimicking humanity and compassion.
It has to be a disguise after all who... That truly understands and appreciates love..would chose any other agenda as a preference over it..especially when the agenda is a short sighted one and often these people fuck themselves in a bad way in trying to fuck you over? It doesn't make any sense when you look at the outcome of their agendas.
Its like they risk their lives trying to fuck you out of $2, never understanding the priceless value of the love and integrity and respect that you once had for them.
I have actually met people like that.. Trying to put a million dollars in their pockets where the two of us can grow and build together but they were satisfied in fucking me over ...over pennies in comparison.
This is what happens when you deal with people that don't truly understand value of morals and character. Things like integrity. Even in the business sense.. Its better to build a long lasting business relationship with an infinite amount of earning potential..than it is to fuck some body over for the price of lunch.
Yet in my life I have ran into person, after person, after person like this....it's so sad and very disappointing.
So I thought about it. People in this place..not all..but far too many..are just really some fucked up human beings. That's not a judgment, that's an honest observation.
People destroy friendships.. Destroy marriages... destroy families... every day... over the most stupid...assed shit. People far too often don't cherish and respect their spouse's..they are too busy using the shit out of their spouses for what ever agenda that's in their head... Long before they even met them.
I see people neglecting their own children... Trying to achieve an agenda that once again in comparison to the contribution they could be making to their children's well being.. it's simply an agenda that's not worth it. In the meantime? The children are suffering.
I have seen people argue and fight about things that often don't even really have anything to do with them, just absolutely stressed out from work and finances...again.. That mayhem takes precedence over the love and peace and joy that they could be sharing. Its the fulfilling of an agenda that is one of destruction..not love.
Its as if love is constantly taking the back seat in our lives.. It's as if these destructive agendas... abandoning your children so that you can run the streets and present yourself like a cumbucket to any man that gives you a compliment. As if that is more important to you than raising our very own children?
As if marrying an innocent man and destroying him just so that you can prove a point to your ex man... That you could find a man that would marry you and go to church with you.. as if destroying me.... And everything I thought we had shared and the infinite potential that love has.. in the process was worth proving that point to him? So it's like fucking over a good man that could love you forever to prove a point to a man that don't give a shit enough about you to marry you in the first place? That's insane.
It's as if either people can't see love...or..people are not people and are something else that can mimic a human but they aren't human.
Any human being without a conscience.. Is an indicator of some thing terribly non human about a person. Lights are on..but nobody is home..
I wonder are people less compassionate as they are being driven like slaves and this mass production of society in terms of making a living is making people great on their jobs but absolutely socially dysfunctional at home..... Or is it the other way around?
Are human beings absolutely so fucked up.. That the powers that be devised this system of enslavement to keep us all busy because they knew we would do nothing but kill each other if we weren't being productive? We would have to deal with one another for who we truly are..rather than not because everybody is working...
So for me here in lies the problem. Less care is given to how we interact with one another, and more importance is being given to the work place. We are on time to punch a clock, but emotionally absent in our relationships with one another.
We kill each other over things, rather than to kill the things that are destroying us.
Love has taken a back seat to survival. Yet what kind of existence is it to be in a world void of love and trust? That's not survival to me..that's called being a society of robots.
Lesley M. Blair
