The Halls Of Loneliness
Whenever you find yourself taking a stroll down the halls of loneliness, the first thing that you may notice is the abundance of silence painted on these walls.
In staring at these walls, they eventually turn in to reviewing screens. We start seeing and noticing historical accounts, events that led up to this present moment.
The years we have spent in the giving of ourselves to others. The love spent in marriages, raising children, the harvest and loss of our efforts. The going into being an adult with these challenges only to possibly find loneliness at the other side of it. The amazing astonishment of the amount of energy spent, time loss that can never be recovered, upon those that time.. has revealed them to be unworthy of.
These walls in the halls of loneliness eventually become mirrors. Reflecting ourselves from every conceivable angle. The more time we spend gazing into these reflections, the more we see about ourselves.
We understand that we never are responsible for the deceptions and ill intent of another, but we are responsible for our reactions to them. If we made a decision based on a deception, the blame isn't in the error of the decision but rather the blame is upon the deceiver. For we were unaware of it being a deception to begin with. While we yet were offering truth.
We ask ourselves how come we didn't see the dirty things that was done to us coming in advance? We may reason that its because we don't think like that ourselves. Somewhere they sold us upon the illusion of love, trust and dedication and just when we bought into it..because we wanted to see the best of this relationship we are now on autopilot. They leave us stuck on the lie that they gave us, while we continued to believe it, often not ever realizing it was a lie to begin with.
We then begin to realize, wow in this place... Within these halls of loneliness i have discovered "me". As in .. I now have the opportunity to give to myself.. All of the love that i had freely given to the those who have proved themselves unworthy. I now get to be "good" to me.
We realize that this silence is the last sound we hear before the deafening sound of joy in the celebration of surviving the abusers, leeches, energy vampires, the betrayers, the evil doers that were hell bent on trying to destroy our capacity to "love".
We begin to understand that the worlds tallest skyscrapers were all built upon an empty lot.
We realize that the walls in the halls of loneliness are not prison bars, but rather what your new fortress is made of.
We are free to be.. As we were intended without validation, nor condemnation from those undeserving of that much power and influence. We are free to love ourselves even more than, we have ever loved them.
We realize we are at the Segway to greatness, free to re-invent ourselves to our own liking without distraction. Free to explore the unlimited potential of our positivity without opposing contradiction. This indeed is not a time of sadness, but one of celebration and joy of good riddance.
This new beautiful fertile ground before you, which you may find yourself standing on that is there for you to grow upon has been paid for in advance by your tears. Your heart has fought some serious battles and in truth is the only thing left standing. This is not a time of defeat.. No my beloved...this is just the calm before your victorious awakening.
Today? Go out and be good to you. Let the world see that you are a loving survivor of those that have tried to destroy you. Let your legacy be the love that you honestly gave. For it will serve as a beacon for the loving ones that will remember this about you. You gave love...while those you loved gave hatred. The love you gave to them is now completely your own for they have forfeited their inheritance to it.
Today, wear the smile of a victorious champion. For you represented ..."love".
I love you all,
LMB
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